Why do some men seem so walled off and disconnected?

Very deep inside the genetic memory of masculine-conditioned bodies, there is the collective memory of war. Just as feminine genetic code carries the memory of generations of suppression and silencing and sexual abuse.

In men, the protection they’ve had to erect within themselves in order to function on a daily basis while carrying this genetic memory has created so many layers of hardness, control, psychosis, numbness, force, and disconnection from feeling.

Most men are terrified, because of this genetic memory and all of the generations of men who have conditioned their sons and those masculine beings around them to be “strong,” to connect to their own intuition, their perception of their own energy, or their awareness of their own feeling/desires (and how to get them).

Sure, men can go after the prescribed “desires” of sexual power, money, status, respect… but deeper under those culturally conditioned and engrained desires .. is what?

As men start awakening, opening their energy body, clearing their central channel, feeling their kundalini rise, their sensitivity becomes heightened. They’re able to connect more deeply, feel more love.. This can cause a triggering of an extremely ancient wall of rage and mistrust - predominantly mistrust of the feminine (literally of women or “mother,” figuratively of feeling).

This rage and mistrust guards a ton of trauma memory.. this ancient code of war, famine, bloodshed, horrible pain, loss of brothers, etc.., and this can be very difficult to move beyond.

The more the feminine energy pushes against the guard wall, looking for deeper connection, the more rage and mistrust can surface, making the pathway confusing for the masculine AND the feminine.

This deeply entrenched internal guard wall maintains its position of control at all costs, usually pushing the feminine away in the process. He will shame her, abandon her, and/or keep her at arm’s length with disconnected sex so he can maintain a sense of control.

The problem with this is that he never gets to taste the depths of connection and the true power that are possible at the other side of that guard wall. This is what I eluded to earlier… The deepest desire for people of all genders is to merge with Source. And through that merging, there comes true power.

Because the walled-off, wounded masculine knows on some level unconsciously, exactly what he is seeking, but has so many layers of energy that are blocking him off and working against this innate desire… and also no real pathway handed down over generations on how to truly decondition himself… He will keep unconsciously seeking through stimulation, addiction, and self- or other- destruction, rather than going down to the layer of his deepest guard wall and facing the fear of letting go of control.

And what many of us don’t realize is that letting go of control is imperative for the real life force energy, the qi, the kundalini, to take over our body-mind system. This is what needs to happen in order for the central channel to open to the flow and merging with divine/source consciousness, and to activate our true internal power centers.

Moving through these protective layers by surrendering to the feminine AND masculine energy that wants to course through our system is terrifying for most men. They must face and embrace deep terror to do so.

It requires dropping into a feeling space that represents every worst fear (and memory) in the book; giving up all power, being dominated by angry, needy women, losing their identity as a man, feeling humiliated and coerced, facing past sexual abuse whether it’s in the personal body or the ancestral/collective pain-body, etc. Each step along the journey is a step closer to their ultimate destination of authentic (super)human power.

We, all frequencies of humans, masculine and feminine and everything else on the spectrum, must learn the art of surrender if we want to know the ways of the universe and embody true power.

It is such an honor to be able to witness beings of all genders on this journey toward liberation. It’s such a tender process to hold space for, and requires great perspective and care. I hope you have the support you need as you navigate this journey yourself.

Love you, rooting for you!