Emotional balance, peace, and centeredness.

When I was a young woman, I repressed most of my emotions. I turned myself into what I perceived “a safe and grounded person” by suppressing anything I perceived as too dramatic, intense, or illogical.

I can't tell you how many times I was told as a young woman, “Oh my goodness, you're so CALM and GROUNDED.” 

I won’t digress too much on the REASONS women suppress their emotions in an effort to feel more in control in this culture … AND suffice it to say… there are some really deeply-rooted patterns and programs in the feminine collective about what emotions are, what power is, and how to successfully navigate this world in these bodies.

The bottom line for me was that as I repressed my emotions in the pursuit of emotional regulation and stability and peace, I actually repressed the flow of my life force … which shifted my life into something that felt really “blah” and dull in so many areas.

Once I started actually liberating my emotions, studying emotional intelligence, and exploring inner parts work, I entered into a whole new way of experiencing emotions. Instead of inner suppression or inner turmoil, I began fully expressing all of my emotions externally… rage ceremonies and major episodes of vocal grief expression, not always knowing where it came from exactly, just that it was there inside me or coming THROUGH me and it needed to be EXPRESSED. 

This felt really empowering and at the same time somewhat overwhelming, as I swung to another end of the extreme in regards to emotions, their expression, and embodiment. Like in an effort to open Pandora’s box within me, I had lost control TO my emotions …. They all felt so big and I tried to give them all the space they needed but it was an overcompensation and I lost my center.

Ultimately, I feel I’ve settled into an emotional groove where I’m friendly with my emotions but I don’t believe their stories. I don’t give them any more power than they hold inherently, I don’t suppress them, I don’t overindulge them, and I allow them to move through me as needed while maintaining my connection with my Truth, my center.

There’s something so feminine and expansive and powerful about letting myself move and sound and fully embody an emotion while keeping my awareness of and connection to my center.

This feels like quite the feat sometimes as a generator in human design with emotional authority 🌊… there are quite a lot of emotions that flow through me, and they are truly an integral aspect of my being. I finally feel I’ve reached some level of true emotional maturity as a result of this conscious exploration of my Self.

What I am saying with all of this is that emotions are hard sometimes… especially finding the balance after a lifetime of repression, or conversely a lifetime of feeling at the mercy of emotions…

AND… balance and centeredness is possible. Even in the face of the most complex grief or most explosive rage (because we all know as women we carry deep wells of these and all other emotions)… We can ride the wave of an emotion in a way that maintains our connection to who we TRULY are… which is not an emotion, it’s not an identity, but something much deeper and Truer than any of that.

We all deserve and are worthy of a life of centeredness that honors all of who we are in each individual moment but that never loses sight of that core kernel of truth inside, where peace always lives.

If you’re interested in exploring emotional intelligence, balance, and centeredness… so you can feel fully alive, expressed, and peaceful in the face of all of life… check out my site and sign up for a session or a package. 

I’d love to dive into your inner deep well of truth alongside you. Let’s see what’s there, together :)