BTS Plant Medicine Retreats
Now that I've spent a couple of weeks in medicine retreats, what I see and feel more than ever is that we collectively are so closed off from our emotions and our ability to FEEL. To empathize. To receive.
Even feeling “good” feelings or natural activations of our energy-body can be extremely uncomfortable for some of us.
Because we are ALL traumatized… or we’ve been told untruths about ourselves.. and stuck in a distorted form of what it is to be a human.
It's really sad, how much we've forgotten about what life is and what being a human is.
We learn the false program that the world isn’t safe. That love isn’t safe. That joy isn’t safe. That activation isn’t safe.
What I love about ayahuasca is that she helps us remove all the barriers we have to liberation, to creativity, to feeling ALL of life.
The joy and the bliss yes but also the pain. Because that’s part of the human experience.
We get to learn how to FEEL and EMBODY ALL of it… with the support of this beautiful amazonian plant. (It's a combination of 2 plants, actually, but.. )
And sometimes the process of opening up to emotions and feelings and empathy and receptivity is extremely challenging.
Because it can be scary to release what we know. Sometimes all we know is survival, contraction, and coping.
It can be scary to step into the unknown, the forgotten.. to begin this process of remembrance.
It can be confronting to step *toward* shame and terror and dissociation in order to learn more about them and begin to transform them into tools for our liberation.
We have so much resistance to seeing and feeling what is uncomfortable. Even though this is the pathway to healing. Every. Single. Time.
We have to get over that hump first and just be ok with staring darkness in the face, unflinchingly.
And then … we walk toward it.
And then… we peek inside it.
And then we dive in and we notice what’s underneath it.
And that’s where we find liberation.
“What has my contraction, sickness, resistance, trauma response, inner wall been protecting? What inside me has been so powerful and sacred that it has needed to be protected all of these years under grief, shame, anger, sadness?"
When you free yourself, you’ll free everyone around you too.
Including me.
Including the people who hurt you.
Including politics and religion and your family.
Including the next 7 generations.
Exponentially. Forever.
Healing comes from being in spaces with people and medicines who SEE you bigger than you can see yourself.
People and medicine that can pull you up to where you’ve expressed you know you should be. Where your intuition tells you you ought to be.
People and medicine who see alllll of your shadow and your light and choose to love you… over and over again through this process.
No matter what.
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